..and i miss you even here taking this all in

pat picked me up and we took a long walk along the train tracks as the beautiful weather accompanied us. i wanted to consume it all. for it to consume me. to soak myself in it. for it to drench me. everything from last summer rushed back - who i was with, the pair of shorts i was wearing, the itch on my feet from treading through dried grass in flip flops, the dim lighting of the train station, the stain from the tanning lotion i used on my fingers. that feeling of wishing time would take its time. i was suddenly overcome with an overpowering feeling of missing. missing someone. some place. some thing.