accepted

emmanuel college.
and then i erased all the songs off my ipod like the idiot that i am. i spent all morning at gabby's and cam's trying to get everything back. i counted on getting a majority of the songs back from max's itunes but everything got deleted off it after he restored his computer. in other words, im fucked.
showing up uninvited at max's turned out well because we spent the entire afternoon talking about everything under the sun. i spent the entire day with him, pat, and benny. benny's little brother came later on and he is the cutest thing there is. then cam came on later on at night. at one point we stopped by amf bowling to see grace, meg, and melissa.

i fear for my hearing

ended up not going to four year strong/set your goals and sold my ticket to murillo. i wasnt planning on going to acacia strain but ended up going, plus i wanted to hangout with keegan before he left for miami. i was ecstatic to not have to deal with bratty, cranky customers by the time 4 rolled around the corner. leaving work, i rushed to fye and got my ticket, went home, ate, got ready, and went to cam's. left my car there and went to the show with cam and danny, and met up with everyone there. saw a bunch of people i havent seen in so long like atem, and a bunch of people i could have gone the rest of my life without seeing. met ryan :)
i spent the first half of the show sitting on this panel thing on the left side near the stage and getting yelled at by security to get off after every song. we made him think i was on cam's back for a while, but after white chapel played he finally figured it out. either that or he just gave up after a while haha. rob got us seats in the lighting section, so he and i sat there for the second half of the show. acacia strain's set was wicked sweet, minus vincent's whining about hatred for the human race. aaaand i bought an over priced acacia strain hoodie. i've probably spent close to eighty dollars in the past two days. great

pouring out; not good for my hair

yet another overdue library book that i have to pay a fine for. i dont know why they still havent revoked my card. can they even do that

i could say

it was like lying out in the grass at midnight, looking up at the starry night and not being able to tell where you end and the rest of the universe begins.

you, yes you

dont you hate it when people you dont know insist on talking to you and all you really think about is fuck off

666

i love always arguing with my parents. cool

I'll be the salt that resides from the water that drains from your eyes

saturday morning and what am i doing? juust spent and hour shoveling our driveway so parents can go to work, and so i can too after them. im working 12-4. im predicting maybe a body count of 10 customers. i hate this shit weather. im realizing more and more how incompatible new england and i are for each other. i can't wait to move west wear the shortest shorts and flipflops yearround. in the midst of my intense shoveling, i catch a glimpse of my mom, shoveling in heels. i think i died laughing then and there.

i had the strangest dream last night. it made me realize how much i still care, and that maybe i havent completely let go. i want to fix things but i dont even know where to start or if it's worth it. on a lighter note, can't wait to see fys and syg!

ps. we havent had school in so long im starting lose track of the days and date.

I've always been fond of

whatever this becomes whatever words i say we are the fortunate ones and when the days are done i wont forget all i see in you and me is a light in the dark of humanity and when the days are done i wont forget timid steps come walk with me and with your useless words come talk to me there are broken hearts now on your stereo but the broken beats are just too slow youll cry it doesnt change a thing kill the lights and let the rain fall recall the memories of yesterdays and better ways and know the innocence is gone move on from this day on we'll never be the same the saddest songs make sense to me so with your sunken eyes come look for me two hour drives are two hours alone but two hour drives are better than home youll die it doesnt change a thing you will kill the lights and let the rain fall recall the memories of yesterdays and better ways and know the innocence is gone move on from this day on we'll never be the same faster words and faster kids faster songs and faster ends the one thing thats stayed the same ive lived through days ive lived through nights ive had my loves ive had my fights you gotta know you have my heart

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finally after the 3rd try..