on repeat

and so we begin again, re-entering the game. no baggage from the past, except maybe the weight of the memories and regret. everything now is fresh. clean slate. the only things displayed on the table are the pros, never the cons. things are exciting because they're a novelty. all is well until the novelty wears off. until the cons surface. what happens then? well, then we retreat, resent the world and ourselves, but more towards the world. and after some time, we re-enter, and the cycle begins again. in the end, people enter and exit our lives, walzting in and out. they take from us as we take from them. in the end, we lose and gain. but in the end, is what we gain worth our loss?